get soooo pissed. I really tried 2 control my temper. But i couldnt, cause nth was done and they were SO rude. Ytd, i went SGH "A&E" department cos i was being referred to there. I can understand why they didn't refer me to an eye clinic since i went to see a doc on a Sat morning. SO, the nurse said "Don't expect anythin drastic to be done cos we're e A&E department n eye clinic is not open tdae." AND she ask me "y am i referred to this department since i have eye problems." Oka? How am i suppose to ans? It was the decision made by the poly clinic doc, i've got no experience in this. Still, i wanna thank god a doc which i believe is an eye specialist checked my eye. At least, sme 1 checked cos i tot i ll juz get sme eye drops w/o having any eye check. The fee was unexpectedly HIGH!! N the funny thing is: the doc prescribed 2 medi, i only got 1 cos she said i have to get the other on my own. I'm like HUH? oka. So here i go.. early mornin ~ poly clinic. The people workin in the pharmacy. i Don't know.. are they counted nurses? Seriously, even if they're not. They're working in a CLINIC ~` they shld expect patients there feeling uneasy, uncomfortable cos they're somewhat SIIIIICCCCK. so ~ i was waiting at e counter. 1st thing the receptionist, who knows how to read prescriptions cos she was wearing a different uniform said to me : "what are u doing here? u shld just que behind." It was so obvious i held a paper on my hand and wanted to ask her qns. Then she said " orr, prescription jus go to the 1st counter." ............ That's all. I approach another worker, asking her how do i get this eye drop ~ she told me the same ting, super unfriendly ~ I tried to ask why do i need to go over to e prescription side, cos the SGH already wrote dwn i can get this -> blah .... eye drop at ANY pharmacy. If i need to que at the prescription side, then how do i get this eye drop frm other pharmacy? I was a lil confused so i asked her nicely, and i dint even finish my sentence. She break my sentence by constantly saying : go counter 1 go counter 1, u need medicine u need to que at counter 1. I get so angry i just shouted. Now to tink of it, i felt a lil bad cos there are times when i serve ppl, i do get agitated with hard to please customers. But still, they are workin in a clinic where many patients are involved. They don't seem keen to help me find my med. Isit just me or wat? But i really felt so angry..... Now i noe how my dad feels. A sick person is an angry person. Control control control.....

Dis is a learnin phase, not jus this alone but everythin in life. Thank god for trials and tribulations, that i noe i will need to go thru and life is jus lidat. When we're babies, we have to fall afew times before we'r able 2 walk. There is a certain kind of difficulty we'll face. And i noe this is e crucial moment - whether i stayed strong in his word or feelin worse n let tings beyond our control to rule over me. To share part of it: He in the family, sme1 i owaez look up to. We are e complete opposites. He's lazy, i am more hardworkin as compared to him but he's definitely a fast learner in everthin, i'm not. I like him, he's smart. Tings he say, it owaez inspires me, he is much more sensible, thou hot-tempered - e onli similar trait we have in e family. Recentli, an incident happened n for e 1st time eva i felt scared why he becme like dis? My cousin actuali recommended him for a job n he sent a 1 min effort resume. Cousin shocked, who will sent tis kinda resume out if he reali wants a job. He himself admit it was a 1 min resume, i reali pray hard he will c how much it ll hlp for him to get a job 1st before he continue doin nth, dreamin abt his dreams. N: Looking at my parents' marriage, they're reali not meeting each other needs. N have not been for many years. For e 1st time, they set a new record. I guess, there will owaez be a new record for everythin. Mayb e nez new record is happily eva after.

2 describe in an "ab-stract" way, there's a NEW color added in my life journey 2day. For ppl who make assumptions real quick, just like me: always tot flying kite is e most boring thing eva. until i experience it for e 1st time tdae. Woohoo, seriously it's quite enjoyable. Of cos, to ask me fly it everyday, i might get sick of it. Cos it's not like my hobby or passion, but flyin it once in awhile with a grp of frens is really fun. Best when it's drizzling accompanied by strong WIND. woohoo, and e sun is not glaring, u can see exactly how far e kite can go. It's even better when e kite is a big SMILEY 1, simple yet nice in a cute way. E next ting i'm aimin for will be e cafe there. I'm curious who are the live bands singin there.

For the whole of 2009, let this month be the last and worst month. For months after, years after ~`` everything will be better! Effort is needed, but before that, trust is the key. Way b4 the trust, it's the things one sae and does. Now i noe how seriously impt it is to think twice before u do or even sae anythin. Not only will it make a difference, impact and change in things, situations, relationships. E worst is: u can never "erase" it but only compensate and try to do wateva u can to reconcile or salvage E situation. I will pray hard, i want every1 to be happy.

Surprisingly, i've decided 2 revive this blog` thanks 2 wat i've encountered today early in the mornin. (but not 6 o'clock) Being chased out off e class, not even can u stay in . Simply just get out, they say. Traffic jams are e biggest enemy! Really, just e BIGGEST enemy. But they will say, you can leave hse earlier. YES! True enough BUT coincidentally, e traffic jam got worse. Mayb e bus driver or e bus itself is having a bad day. These are based on my own assumptions on how they will respond if i ever tried to explain. I'm not e expressive kind, mayb it's not even bout tat.. but i just dont see a need to. At e end of e day, they will not even care bout e reasons as they see it as.... excuses. What i can say is? Wierd enough, if i went, i was never late but jus today i step out of my hse even earlier than normal, i was late. Argggh ~~` Next ~` seriously, i am thankful for knowin wat i want to do other than dance. At least, i am interested in music and im not draggin myself to go for class, unless it is non-musical. Mayb there are just things tat i fail to see. Just, it doenst make sense. The special class is for us to feedback on the foundation course. And.. what are feedbacks all about if they dint even do anythin about it. Yea, they did a small change which is = no change. I feel it kinda get worse? Esp when they can tell us -students Some classes will be cancelled due to sch's budget.. hua's top listed joke. Really. sch fees r alot more expensive, yet ... ... ... ... what is sch really for? I always tot u're there to learn things, things tat u ARE interested in n dont have e knowledge / technique of it. No idea how and where to start from. oh no, i'm wrong. It's actually a place where ppl will tell u what to hand up next week but u hav no idea what is it about. How to do it etc. So.. u're supposed to find out urself, research on it. In other words - self taught. Woohoo .. I get it now.

cant Get to sLep, duno y. so` happen to Visit friendster. yet aft readin the testimoniaLz startin frm 2003, i can't help But luff.

still remb laz time wib x-mouse n we Play soccer like mad, n e 424 ` reali mani funi tinGz happen mann.

e funiest testi i read was :

hmm `recentLi wrote a long 1 ~ unfortunateLy, dere was Error! tdae was tirin Mann, tot it'll B a Gd dae aft eatin a wow Lunch. no wae mann. hab To rush here N dere , worse ` hab To delay n stuff den .. hmm. Juz hate to decide On stuff mann. itz either tis Or tat, both r impt. so ` lucky ~ sorta completed both. smetimez juz wish To b selfish a liL mann. rite?  

haben pack nnithin Yet. tmL ish O's English Oral. heh ` thou i dont feeL it yet but wen I c e examiner tmL `` i tink i'll juz bang waLL die mann. sure tongue tight. lucky itz unlike E Chinese oraL tat was over. omost Lost my voice , so tmL ~ i'll drink 2 big spoonfuL of -pi pa gao-

tmL samsung comp. to b exact ish tdae. N shit` hab prac = rush. unLess we Gib it a mish. nniwae, it wiLL b great if eva we can Go for a hoLi everi 1 together mann. reLax n stuff. no work, no bookz, no nth. Juz reLax. hab fun. cooL dwn, cooL long. woohoo` i'll B satisfied even If itz juz a dae. thou it wiLL neva b enuff mann.

 

heh. recentLi haben been updatin. reaLi busy? or shld i sae, kinda Lazi. tis season` no idea how to describe. But definiteLi more tired den usuaL. smehow, feelin too Greedy. too much Commitmentz, u cant Do well in all. u c, ah hua = flower N not ultrawomen. heh` but yea, still Learnin to sacrifice sme stuff for e more Impt onez. nniwae, im super into e Laz vampire Bk [christopher pike] n i juz got to noe afew daez aGo it hab part 4,5,6 n K.O ` im goin to finish part 3 mann. by den` 4,5,6 ish a muz im Goin to hunt dwn. `=pp

 

recentLi, sme ppl told Me im not Like laz time. not as cheerful n stuff. cme to tink Of it, smehow i feeL tat applies to most of us. mayb as time past, everi 1 ish so busy N tired n hmmm. tinkin Back, i reaLi mish e past. e timez wen we Juz started, ahha. damn funi. everi 1 compared to now reaLi changed mann, not onli outer appearance. sme aLot, sme a liL', sme ~ not much diff. i even Mish e timez wen i 1st time Go overseas with fwenz. infact, aLL of us 1st time Go overseas with fwenz?! ahaa` K.O ~ 

 

tokin bout Now. at Laz, derez smethin im rather Happy wib N beLieve e rez too `=DD heh. nez, my greatest wish Ish we can go overseas, everi 1 together. Learn dance N hab fun. Letz c.