--> hot tempered and gets irritated with small little things. Loves to complain a lot but e whole procedure will not last for 15 mins. also, i'll try to keep it inside for as long as i can. Now, it's a little different. Funny thing is, not that i can't control, but i purposely showed it. Thou, i did not do it directly but vent it on everyone in a way, i'm really sorry. i don't mean it. Have mercy on me as i'm jus confused n stuck in btween. Wantin to show that: "i'm angry," stop it! but yet i don't feel gd about showin it to that person directly.

Pls bare that in mind, if i chose to control my temper, it's never becos i'm scared to show.

I believe ppl who have great tolerance is really bcos they DO have great tolerance n not becos they're scared of this / that person / things / blah blah.

Its also becos they're jus a little "stupid" in a way, they don't wana make e whole atmosphere tense becos of their anger, and also bcos they don't wana spoil the relation.

But now i realise, by showin it to everyone, u're spoilin ur relations with not 1 person alone but everyone as well.

so now, i believe i'll change again.

Instead of gettin pissed, i was feelin smethin else tdae. a complete mixed feelin. Was it really my responsibility? or shld i at least take e initiative to ask?

so if i ask.. (shld i look at it at a "my responsibility" point of view / "just offering to help" point of view?)

in e past, i wld have jus ask n offer to help.

now, i've become a little selfish. I don't know how ppl see it. But i felt really sad or.. i don't know what is the right word to use.

maybe to thank god, i've realise my role is a piece of tissue paper.